Disappointed that you blog have became private.. T.T

Anyway~~ Second last day of orientation today.. T.T Suddenly, I feel more comfortable being with my OG mates than Bpians, LOL:) Just felt that I didn't belong there with them but when with OG, everyone was really willing to talk to one another.. haha:)

The day started with Chapel!!! LOL, its just singing of those church songs by a band formed by TEACHERS like so amazing~ The teachers there are quite talented sia~ :) It lasted for around 1hour? I like it quite alot but people say that they almost fell asleep.. haha~

Lectures after that. Yea, its boring~~ went through chem,phys and math intro lectures.. They are obviously use to scare us and just surrounds this one idea: JC life is gonna be SO tough. LOL:)

Then games!!! :))) Outside of gym.. we played police and thief, this bear, hunter, victims, villagers story-line game and many more.. LOL, i can't remember sia~ Oh, the MRT game but using names is soo fun!! Enjoyed smacking the two people sitting next to me, hahaha:)

Today's the only day that we practised very little of the mass dance, but had a great laugh watching how jon and evan danced the couple dance,LOL!

oh, we kind of became much closer by taking all those unglam and 'glam' photos and laughing so much at those photos! Haha, today's filled with awesome laughter! :P

I must be tired, cause the way I phrase my words is horrible..

Then.. mass rally was a little less high to me than the last two days, didn't enjoy it much.. They spent sometime doing those admin stuffs too, haha, but its okay..LOL:) Oh, the outdoor games are fun as well!! We played two games today, one was to attempt to peel off the masking tape from each other's back and I think my dance partner got some grudge with me, keep on attacking me sia, LOL.. but its fun!! :))) Then the water bomb game was quite a failure,LOL..

Yup, that's all today!! I feel much more comfortable with them now, I know everyone's names due to the fantastic FACEBOOK!!! hahaha:) <3 fb! :)

After today, I'm quite sure that I have a fear with people with a certain high authority..At first, I'm quite comfortable with all of the OGLs, but when I know that she's the vice pres of her cca, suddenly got timid to talk to her and uncomfortable as well.. And know I think I may look weird to her..As in I became overly polite.. And its not the first time as well, like I'm a little scared of manling in the past as well, cause she's the pres of student council.. and and Jun Yue a long time ago.. LOL.. Its weird, I know, but I can't seem to get rid of this unusual fear...LOL..

I'm sooo tired.. tomorrow's gonna be a long day!! Hope that it'll be fun! :D bye bye:)

Briar is on fire!!!! :DD

Today was great as well!!! haha, I like my clan Mzonka, OG briar and OGLs alot!!!!

yea, so second day at ACJC was crazy as well, by starting that day with lectures.. T.T I listened to four lectures today-GP, KI, Bio and Econs.. GP teacher was quite nice, didn't really feel that sleepy but KI was horrible~ Especially it continues directly after GP.. Then the bio teacher's scary.. She even start teaching the first chap of what we need to learn sia.. Dont even know what she's talking about, but she mentioned somethings that rings a bell like restriction enzyme and homologous chromosomes.. LOL, i'm NEVER gonna take bio for alevels..

Econs was great!! The lecturer was so humorous sia.. :P I think I'll enjoy his lessons alot if he were to teach me.. :) So, H2 econs for me now! :) It's also the most lively lecture among the 4 lectures! But the jokes cracked are a little offensive so better not say it.. :P

After those long lectures, played ice breaking games like 7-up and 'duck duck goose'.. lol, ran like mad, but its fun! And we wrote 'ACJC' with out butt for no reason, haha:)

Mass Rally's really fun as well, like those cheering wildly kind of thing but will need to stand with people that are high.. If not, its so weird shouting alone.. haha:) Their cheers are so hard to remember.. -.- But its super duper fun ttm! :) Like when they start to run and scream crazily when this guy hits the drum... SUPER HIGH!

I think I'll never be able to learn the mass dance, the best thing I do is to high five with another person.. I can't remember the dance steps lorhh~ haiz.. But its quite okay following the OGLS.. :)

Ooh, played some outdoor games as well like the shampoo game where we need to collect foam by washing our heads.. dirty but FUN! That's the best word I can use to describe this orientation! And and scissors paper stone! omg, its the best scissors paper stone that I've win so far becuz I get to pour water on the loser!!! hehe, super evil! :)

Yupp.. reached home at around 7pm as well today! :) Today was I guess lesser fun as compared to ystd, but the so-called lectures are really useful in making choices for subjects combination.. Hmm, and I think I've decided to take PCME, with chem as H1:)

I'm sooo tired now.. hope you guys had fun as well!! LOL:) I think I'll miss my OG mates on tues lehh...But I still can't remember everyone's name and didn't manage to talk with the guys much.. T.T yea, I'll try to on next mon, because the OGLs kept emphasising on how impt it is.. but its hard~ :( On the happier note, I did talk to all the girls laa~ LOL:)

YUP, BYE BYE:)

YOYOYO!!!! Haha, first day st ACJC was crazy, fun, exciting, DIRTY and tiring!!! :P

Started when I walked into the school alone because,yea, i was alone.. And it really shocked me when the AC seniors stood along the corrider screaming,'WELCOME TO AC!!!!' Totally shocked to the max... Haha, I even wanted to escape by walking another way but could not cause they lined up all the to the lobby screaming into my ears, haha:) But it was quite nice laa~

Went in and saw bpians!!! Omg, was sooooo happy and relieved to see them, like shulei, ginny and sharleen.. :) I think I'll feel really lost without them.. Went into the hall for their morning assembly..Quite surprised to know that they sing the national anthem without the music playing leh, but the way they sing is nice:) Yea, then there was the introducing of the subject heads, its funny to hear the students cheering for the teacher they like, and the way it suddenly got so quiet when the teacher doesn't have supporters... :P

Then, TALKS by pricipal, vice-princial, DM, the teacher in charge of admin stuffs... I like the DM's talk best, he's like saying,'Keep a safe distance when talking to friends, and my way of safe distance is to let light pass through your mouth, if i can't see the light, you are in serious trouble.' HAHA:) Apart from his talk, the others kind of made me dozed off.. T.T

Break and I saw WAITENG AND PUISHAN!!!! :)))) haha, was very happy, cause i'm a little bit more comfortable with them... :) Walked around and then went back for the next talk which was a bit more interesting about the choosing of subject combinations... more impt as well...

After that, ORIENTAION STARTS!! Omg, they are really, really, really high to the max!!! The way they present and everything.. Somehow made me think of cheering competition in BP.. :P So, I'm in Mzonka clan and my OG is briar.. :) It was a little weird at first but then the moment i sat down, met this girl from commonwealth who is really really friendly! We talked quite a lot but turn out it is through the ice breaking game that i know her name, emily.. :) I really think she's nice, so kind of stick with her throughout the day! :) First new friend made:) But, she's also really friendly with other ppl as well luh~ :)

I think I totally suck at dancing ttm.. T.T they have this mass dance thing and I completely cannot dance AT ALL.. T.T But the games are fun!! Like there's this game if filling a tube with water that are full of holes, the running around game which i'm unsure of the name and the best part, MUD GAME! Got totally soak with mud after that, and very cold as well, but it was really fun!!! :)

I'm quite happy to see that everyone was willing to try and play even though there may be complaints before, but everyone got all muddy together in the end... If I was to be with my friends in the past, I really don't think they will wanna do such things and groan the whole day after getting dirty.. The feeling was excellent as well as when we start to help each other wash up in the toilet using the water pipe, like, we are bonded.. Its the first day when see each other, but I realised that everyone seem really open to one another, just a few 5hours and I felt that I really belong in it... The mere 5hrs changed us from strangers to friends.. Although I've yet to be able to talk to everyone, I really hope I can! Briar rocks! :P

Hehe, actually im still as shy as before, but maybe its better now.. :)

Reached home at 7.30pm being stinky.. :) BUT IT WAS FUN!

Yup, may tmr be better! bye bye:)

Last day of sleeping late, waking late, watching videos non-stop for 4hours and blah~ :(

Got posted to ACJC.. haha, more or less expected it.. Orientation starts tomorrow lehh.. And I was hoping that they'll drag the start of orientation till after CNY.. LOL..

I'm getting worried as to how it will be like to enter a completely new environment, the sight of seeing unfamiliar faces staring at one another gives me the gitters.. :( I think I'll be quite uncomfortable in AC, but I'll try barhh.. :(

Gosh, I'm getting very worried now.. ahh.. :(

LOL(: Good luck to everyone whose appealing okay? Hehe:) JIAYOU! :)

Cause you're in trouble trouble trouble~~ :) 'Hoot' by the awesome SNSD!!

Hehe, yup, Nabilah, I had a lot of fun at CO just now!! LOL(: Went for the first time in 7 months.. Feels great to see my junior whose in Sec3 this year, see Liuqin and the instructors.. I'm so surprised that he still remember us, LOL(: Good memory(: Although we're just there for like 1 hour, I think its enough to make me worried for them.. haha(:

This year's SYF pieces are seemingly much easier than last 2years, as the speed is really much slower and lesser of those weird beats.. Y'know, like 后半拍 stuffs.. I don't know whats that in english.. T.T The set piece for this year is very nice to listen.. Haha, maybe its hard cause never tried playing myself...Gah, I really hope they, the liuqin-ists will do well...

Anyway, I'll need to worry for myself soon after getting into JC's CO, SYF for them is this year as well.. However, after the trip to BPCO today, I can't wait to get started, I really miss the atmosphere in CO, be it sectionals or da zu.. It's really a nice feeling to be surrounded by erm, music? I'm like not really fantastic or whatever, my sense of rhythm is totally screwed up, but I will work hard on it! Haha, Chan Kheng Yi, JIAYOU!

Gosh, it has been so long since I talked about CO, that really played a significant role in my life in BP..

I really prefer being an alumni, because its so much comfortable talking to the instructors, dont't need to worry that I'm rude to them.. Heehee, just joking! :)

12hours later, we'll know where we will be for the next two years.. I'm not really worried at all, to be frank, since my choice ain't risking..

Good luck and Goodbye! :) I love today(:

Was watching this 60 mins long interview of doubleS and it makes me miss them even more..

Knew so much more of them..

I will continue supporting them, become a faithful tripleS and wait for their return...

DoubleS, fighting! :)

Really wanted to go out, but realised that there will not be such chances anymore to enjoy their interviews, music videos or variety shows, hence decided to devote these few days to catch up with these things.. :)

haha, me and my boring life, but I'm enjoying every minute of this..

yup, bye bye(:

Killed quite a number of brain cells trying to read those econs' notes...T.T haha~ Tried to study a bit because feel that my brain is getting rusty, but the moment I open it, my eyes start to get sleepy and find myself staring into space, so i tried MEMORISING a bit, but found out that after I go on to the second page, I forgot the first page completely... So gave up after the first 5 pages.. zzz... T.T

Really considering whether I should take econs or geog.. I will find geog much familiar since I have been studying it for 4years? Can't remember whether there's geog in sec1, but it will waste the huge stack of econs notes that bro passed it on to me.. Then what can I do with it? Burn it? LOL.. Next matter, should I take H1 or H2? I asked my graduated cousin if there's anything bad on taking H1 humans, but she said that it's more of an advantage, but bro said that taking H2 will be more useful for applying scholarships, which he have been quite enthusiastic about these days, in getting a scholarship.. And I think I'll try to get one in J2 since it's going to be very expensive and burdening for my parents with both of us getting into university in the same year... That's two years from now..


LOL, I know its kind of early to consider about such things but kind of realise that conversations at dinnertime are all about these stuffs, so got a bit influenced by my family..

Alright, enough of these things, shall carry on with my KPop activities!! :P

Annyeong~~ :)

So I can believe, I'm not alone~~ :P

I'm so addicted to Jung Min's 'Not Alone'! :) I'm so happy that at least one member from double s released their solo album, which kind of increases their possibility of making a Double S comeback after completing their solo activities.. Its been a long while since I've watched Music Bank, ever since Double S staged their 'Love Ya'comeback album and not long after, company issues arose... T.T Double S, fighting! :)

I'm like so-called being controlled with the time I can spend online because I think I've spent too much time watching Playful Kiss yesterday.. haha(:

I have nothing to say... T.T Just trying to fulfill the promise to myself that I must produce a post each day.. LOL(:

bye~:)

I LOVE HAPPY ENDINGS(:

Really I do! That's why I like Playful KIss a lot and I've finished it for the second time just now! :) Everyone found their own partners, even Kyung Soo sunbae, LOL(:

School's starting really soon.. :( I DON'T WANT! Okay, even though I think that I've rested enough, as I'm getting more and more bored each day, it will be hard to go back to those study days... T.T

So hope that time will stop at 25Jan 11.59pm,hehe, but its impossible~~ T.T

Okay, I'm a LITTLE crazy.. :P

Park Jung Min fighting! I love his performance at Music Bank today! hahaha(:

I must stop all these KPop stuffs the moment school starts, if not how am I going to study well...T.T Even my parents are threatening to lock my notebook up.. T.T

AHHHHHHH~ I hope something will happen on 27jan to drag the time to start school,LOL. Oh! I just found out that Poly starts later than JC, UNFAIR! LIke they'll start around one month later, gosh, should have chose poly if I'd knew this earlier...haha(:

Goodbye(:

I'm so glad that Selina is being discharged of hospital! haha~ Although I'm not much of a SHE fan, I'm just happy that she's recovering well and smiling to face all those reporters.. It must have not been easy for her to survive through those pains by 3rd degree burns.. T.T Get well soon Selina! LOL(:

I think I'll be staying at home as well today..T.T And visit my grandma tomorrow,because I think I'll be difficult to do so once school starts.. :( If I really get into AC, I will definitely join CO which means all my saturdays are GONE. They practise on saturdays and another day during the weekdays.. T.T And sundays wil be devoted to homework and tuition.. I'm I thinking of such things a little way too early? HAHA(:

OHYAH! Jungmin from double S released his solo album!!! OMG~ 'I'm not alone' is fantastic!! Although the MV kinds of reminded me of Love Ya's mv, but its still great! JUNGMIN FIGHTING!!!! :D

Bye~ :)

Aww, its so sad watching the end of the adam couple... Although i've only watched the last episode, tears kind of formed in my eyes when ga in cried...T.T I wonder how it will be like if goguma couple ends too, i dont know how much i'll cry.. LOL(:

Its just a virtual marriage in we got married, but i believe it meant a lot to the celebs who participated in it, because it is really rare to have a chance to understand someone from an opposite sex that well.. i remember watching the end of the ssangchu couple as well, between hyun joong oppa and hwangbo, and i think i kind of cried as well... hyun joong oppa's a really nice guy to be with, though he's like 21 years old at that time, but the degree of meticulous he had towards hwangbo exceeded i believe a lot of the other older men..yea, and that's one of the reason I love him a lot, not just simply because he's handsome and popular...

Talking about him, I believe that he is still enjoying his rest and at the same time preparing his solo album.. There had been really little news about him recently, but I think its good news, cause his having a well deserved break.. OPPA, FIGHTING! :p

Stumbled upon the mediacorp star, joanne peh's blog, and i really enjoyed reading all her posts! LOL(: The way she expresses her thoughts towards certain issues is very clear and direct, not faking her feelings towards it...haha(: its kind of the first artiste blog I've come across, and I think I'll continue following her posts! :)

I shall try to blog in proper English from now on in preparation for General Paper. haha(: yea, 'haha' is not proper english, but its sounds a little solemn without it..

I don't know what's motivating me into blogging, maybe due to Nabilah's constant responses? HAHA(: Thanks a lot and a lot, Nabilah! hehe:) And in hope to improve my horrible C5 English results... Kind of a big blow to me, that C5 is so ugly.. :(

That's all! Goodbye(: This is the simplest way I can think of to end a post, LOL(:

shopping today for chinese new year clothes is badd~ T.T

travelled so far to FAR EAST PLAZA, there's tons of clothes there, but somehow nothing suits me, its either too big or too small, too short or too long, or just looks completely WEIRD on me.. turn out i didnt even buy a single thing from there... :(

oh, i did buy something, a notebook from borders at wheelock place because i needed to use up that 5dollars voucher by mr loh.. -.-

its so ironic that i turn out to finish buying my cny clothes at LOT ONE... after the long trip to orchard...HAIZ~

im so pathetic, LOL(:

but at least finish buying liao laa, just two tops and a skirt, haha(:

okay, im thankful that i need not go to see bro off for his ns because he's bringing his gf there as well, omg, im so thankful... i bet they will be like those in taiwan drama shows where they'll kiss goodbye as though the guy's never gonna come back... *vomits*

OMG, WHY IM I SO EVIL?!

haha, he wont see this de laa, I THINK.. :P

okay, to be truthful, im sad that he's leaving for approx. 2months, that will mean no more bickering and no more IT help.. T.T but i shall act like i dont care, hehe(:

lol, have fun bro! i'll miss you!

I CANT WAIT FOR HIS BOTAK APPEARANCE!!

shyt, being evil again..

okay, i shall shut up, goodbye!

i think i'll blog very often from now on.. :)

yaye~

KBOX WAS SO FUN!!! WITH DAGUI AND ALVINA!!!!

i think lesser people is more fun than with huge grps of people.. can sing much more songs.. haha.. and i dont remember i was able to choose songs last time i went becuz too many people lerh.. T.T but this time was great!!!!

6dollars for 2hrs+++ is soooooo cheap!! last time was like over 10dollars? we overtimed for 35mins like so pro lorh~~ until the screen kind of showed that time was up and that its the last song... LOL.. :)

BUT IT WAS FUN!

thanks soooooo much guys! i really really enjoyed today duper lots!!

haha(:

shopping with mum tmr ar orchard.. but i dont like orchard becuz the roads like so complicated and its so easy to get lost... haha(:

bb(:

yaye, i got my ipod!! :P

Lol, its ipod nano, the small and cute one..-.- the ipod touch too ex. liao laa, no money to buy.. hahaha(:

but its 16GB!!! i think can store about 1200 song, LOL...

kbox with ppl i love later!!! woohoo~~ i really really hope it will be fun, because i've always wanted to go out with them, really really!! :P

i've got nothing else to say~

haha, last week i remember i was crying at this time for olevel results and now its sooo different!! hehehe~ :)


yupp,bye bye:)

I'm really disappointed to know how my primary school friends are now.. like how they are picking up bad habits and not knowing where they should go now due to their results.. looking at how despaired they are somehow makes me feel, i dont know, guilty?

keep having flashbacks about how we played crazily in the past, when i went to her house in P6 where the aim of doing project became pillow fighting, how we chatted happily in school, how they teased me with a guy, how flustered i was when she lied to me that he said he liked me, all those small little memories we made when we are so innocent and immature ran through my mind.. i guess at that time, i only cared about my results, worried that i could not get into bpghs... i should have spent sometime influencing her to study and work hard together.. probably that way she would not have turned like that now...

maybe she had forgotten about me, i was just a passer-by in her primary school life.. but she's not to me, she's a true friend, an awesome desk partner in mt during P5 and a duper good friend in the first half of P6..yet, we drifted away as years passed.. we did chat on msn in sec1, how she taught me to change my dp for the first time, we chatted really long, but that was really, really the last time i had contacted her..in fact, somehow i dont have the courage to approached her anymore...

all these had passed for so long, its time to let it go right? even if i see her someday, i wont know what to talk to her, although i really want to..its just some kind of mixed feelings, you know?

maybe she have found her real best friends within these four years, maybe even if she sees me, she wont recognised me anymore...

haha, time to let it go eh?

lol, sorry, being emotional again...

jc wont be easy to survive through, should put all these behind and start afresh.. :)

bb:)

omg, suddenly so many people from bp chose nj... despite all the negative comments they made on fb...so 口是心非... hehehe(:

no matter what, since i've made my own choice on giving up nj and choose ac, i shall live with it.. haha, i shall prepare myself to be part of ac..

I LOVE AC!!! LOL-.-

haiz...apart from jc schools, i realise i have nothing to talk about.. T.T

holidays ending in about two weeks time, yet i've fallen sick, running nose and sore throat... :( wasted dont know how many pieces of tissue paper...:( when i get better, i must try my luck again and ask them out..party world!!!! :P

lol, bb(:

somehow, i feel upset of seeing people making choices because of others, its your future, shouldn't you think about what you really want rather than to just follow other's footsteps? friends are really impt, i know, but do you know that, till the end, we'll still have our different paths to walk and that separation is still unavoidable? please, wake up from it soon eh? love ya(:

alright..

I AM going to ACJC.

This will be my choice and I'll never regret it.

I will live well in it.

Yup, for once ever since last week, i can sleep well.

I really hope i will get in.

END OF STORY.

No more stuffs relating to Olevels from now onwards..

good bye! :)

I sound sooo determined.. :P

I think i know my choice now, acjc... :)

the environment's really good, with it being English speaking will indeed kind of improve my dying English.. acjc's co needs liuqin-ist, because there's only one liuqin-ist currently who is j2 this year... hmm, somehow suddenly everything fits in nicely...

but i'll go to nj's open house as well today, its still my dream school, but i know its hard to get in, see first barh... :)

went to sajc, aj, and acjc... sajc is really a christian school, its fine for me, but i think it'll be uncomfortable to those non-Christians.. white and blue feels like a hospital.. anyways, its too far, not my choice.. :)

aj, i thought it wil still be acceptable, every one's really friendly and nice there, i think it will be easy to do pw in this school, but the environment.. erm, i can only say that the running track is newer than the school.. but i really think its a good choice for ppl who do not mind the environment.. but not for me, i dont wanna spend the only 2years of pre-u in old bp-like campus.. hehe..

acjc, when we enter, its like WOW.. really BIGGGG..i like the glass doors, its like a hotel lobby.. we talked to 2 of their students, they seem quite friendly though... so we kind of have a conclusion that maybe because they speak english really well, it gives ppl the impression that they are high and mighty, but actually its quite okay.. acjc is also a good place to study after school because the 2nd level of the library are filled with chairs and tables and its also next to the detention area, so most prob it'll be quite quiet...classrooms are air-conditioned... :) swimming once a month! :) two pe lessons per week! sch fees are those govt. fees so actually i guess its not a really rich sch, like how i've always though of...

hehe.. after the long and tiring visit to three schools ystd, i realise that rumors shouldn't be taken in too seriously, the best is to GO THERE AND SEE FOR YOURSELVES.. haha.. i think i really had too much prejudgements of the school to make a really informed choice of where i wanna go.. yep.. :)

after today's tour to nj, i think i will know where will i spend the coming two years of my life...

haha...acjc is currently first place! :)

must make my choice today night.. :)

running nose and sore throat.. T.T

LOL.. random.. bye bye(:

Great day with really good friends touring nanyang jc!! :)

i really like the campus lehhh, but its very far, took 50mins to reach from cck to lorong chuan.. haiz.. should i go? anyway, we left our names at their co booth.. lol(:

i like the library, its like those public library but maybe a bit smaller.. the canteen is very big too!! but their hall is kind of smaller than that in bp... hehe, considering though.. :)

going to ajc, acjc and sajc's open house tmr!!! :DD can't wait to see wan ching in ajc!!! hope i can(: hmm, if the campus is really acceptable, i think i'll go in as well...ajc.. mummy loves ajc...haha(:

yep, looking forward to tmr!! hope their open house's fun and useful.. haha(:

i shall, or maybe, i must make up my mind tmr night and fill in that form... yes i'll do that.. zzz... i think im dragging way too long... seems like quite a few ppl have made up their mind.. yup, its either ajc, acjc or nj... yea..

somehow i feel like giving up nj, like so impossible with that lousy eng result, haiz.. i dont know, i really dont know.. should i try? but i dont wanna fail.. ahh, okay aj or nj as first choice... LOL..

this post seem pointless, hehe, wasted your time lerh... okay, i shall post something better next time... tralala(:

eh, nabilah, sorry laa, i think i over-reacted, i promise i wont do it again, hehe, sorry... all the best in making your right decision for pre-u!!! :)

hehe..

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I've got NINE for L1R5!!! okay... maybe i doesn't sound like really fantastic but im really really REALLY happy for it you know!!!!!!! i wanted to just get a ten, but nine is just fantastic, awesome, YAYE! :DD

im really glad that my friends did well, rachel, huifang, nabilah, and most of all.. SHAN LING!!!!! really really happy for her!!! can't wait for the dinner later!!! :DD

ooh, im happy that i GOT A1 FOR AMATH!!!!! sorry, eh, amath teacher, didn't meet your expectation of B4... :P yea, im still upset by your comments saying that i will get B4 for amath olevel...

i got A1 for geog.. feel really really apologetic for not thanking my geog teacher, i should have, my god... but i dont know how to say it directly to her, thank you, really, i am... hope she'll see this.. without you, i really dont think i will get this A1.. thanks a million, a zillion.. thank you.. :)

i wanna have dinner soon!!! i really wanna turn my clock to 7.30pm now and run out of the house...

im that happy... :)

thanks a lot for everyone's encouragement.. im really happy, despite that ugly english.. i feel apolopetic to my eng teacher as well... sorry.... :(

yup, hope everyone's happy with their results eh? after recieving it, it doesn't look that scary after all.. :)

im really happy..:P

okay, chan kheng yi, enough...

I AM HAPPY!!!!!!

lol, bye bye:)

somehow dont the mood to do anything... i thought i'll be okay, but the worry and fear is getting on me, maybe because i know i did put in a lot of effort for it, that's why i dont want to do badly. i want my parents to be proud of me, i wanna prove some teachers wrong, okay, maybe one teacher that i wont get a B4 for amath..

for the first time, i dont even feel like searching for kim hyun joong's activities or watch korean shows or watch television.. i wanna sleep so that i will stop thinking crazily but i dont wanna sleep as well because tmr will then come soon...

i think im getting a temporary depression which may be over by tmr, i hope...

i dont wanna do badly, i really dont want to, i wanna do well, i wanna be able to get into nj, i wanna my parents to say, 'well done, daughter', i wanna cry on stage because i did well, i want all my beloved friends to do well as well, so that we can be happy together, i dont want to feel regretful...

somehow, i think im resembling mildred from F451, immersing myself into music to escape thoughts..

i hate hearing laughter now, i did laughed just now after watching a funny thing on tv, for 10secs, then the image of olevels ran through my head and i stopped, feeling awfully worried again...

these anxiety, fear,confusion will end soon right?

haha, i sound extreme, yea, just venting my worries here, hehe, read if you like.. lol, but i hope it wont affect your feelings..

jiayou, baobeis!!! :D


mum, im okay, my mentality is still fine, dont look so worried.. :P

two more days to the release of olevel results..

i think im ready to face the truth, because it has been a long time of two months ever since olevels ended.. no use waiting longer...

however, i'm really really worried for it, suddenly all the emotions just fall on me.. lol, what im i saying.. T.T like im confused to where i should go, i want to go nj, but i know i wont be able to get in, i wanna nanyang, but mum refuses, she says its too far.. she wants me to go anderson, but i dont want, i dont know why, but just dont really have a good impression on it.. the only sch that both mum and i are happy for is pioneer... i dont know, maybe after all the choices i've laid out for myself, i'll choose pioneer in the end....

i dont even know i could get into pioneer or not, because i dont even know whether i'll pass my english, i got a huge feeling that i didnt do well for english... that's why im much more worried for the outcome..

sometimes i can even picture the two different outcomes on 10jan: the happy side of receiving the slip from the principal and saying, 'well done' or the ugly sight of receiving it from mrs poh shaking her head saying, 'see, that's what i told?' omg, im totally going insane... T.T

im not smart but i hope im not stupid as well... i just wanna an acceptable L1R5 of around.. 10? i'll jump in joy if i get 10, i'll be fully satisfied, but i wont know where i'll go, nanyang and get the unhappy look or anderson and being unhappy myself... what a conflict.. :(

i dont dislike mum, i love her, but its hard to get my ideas to her that will win her trust.. im worried i'll regret for making the wrong choices, like how i chose tri sci despite mum telling me not to and in return studying my guts out to manage all of them well..

i dont know, i really dont know... i seem cheerful on the outside, but actually im not, i just dont want them to worry about me... thats' why i have no choice but to pour everything here...

i'll do well, right? i dont want cry of sorrow on 10jan, on the other hand, i want tears of happiness to flow down..

to you who happens to be reading, thank you for your listening ear.. i hope this post will not let you have a bad impression of me, because its the only way i can find to let it all out through words...

all the best, everyone(:

gonna talk about the cruise i went on from 2jan to 5jan if not i'll forget everything.. :)

hmm, so it started on 2jan, mum, dad, bro and i went to harbour front centre by taxi, reach there at around 1pm, though the boarding time was 2pm, waited for a long time b4 check in, and , omg, the ppl there are so uncilived, like they are so scared they can't get on the ship like that... :X was quite angry with everyone trying to cut queue and pushing their way through... ooh, went on superstar virgo.. but after getting in, felt better laa, cuz it was hugeeee inside!!! :D

put our things into our cabin and went to book for the gala dinner which was said to the most expensive dinner throughout the trip, but all the food there are considered 'free' becuz int was included in the ticket fare for the cruise...had buffet tea break at the Mediterranean resturant, it only serve buffet but its nice... :) then mum and dad went to make their membership for the casino while bro and i sat there and emo... T.T lol, there was a drill as well, like to teach us how to put on life jacket and where we should assemble, like those fire drill in sch laa, bt w/o the dm screaming... :) it was fun(:

then was dinner!!! at the pavilion, chinese resturant(: the food was erm.. to be honest, not that nice...heehee~ then... i think bro and i went arcade.. can't rmb, becuz i think im half awake by then... while mum and dad went to casino... ooh, then we watched a magic show called 'philippart and anja', it was awesome!! they kind of fooled everyone... haha(: i think that was the best part of the day!! laughed my heart out(:

supper next! been very long since i had supper.. its buffet but there still a lot of nice food to eat!!! haha, ate till around 1am... :) i feel fat now.. -.-

3jan, had breakfast with mum and dad at bella vista, western restaurant, very nice~~~ bro woke up late so he ate morning tea at 10.30pm...saw this angmoh scolding a waitress, so scary~~walked around the ship and felt so sad when mum, dad and bro could enter the casino becuz only 18yrs old and above could enter.. so stood outside taking photos... haha.. then lunch! at bella vista i think... ate this tomato dish which looks delicious bt actually it isn't... but mum and bro said its nice.. dad ate steak(:

at 2plus, disembark for penang!! haha, book a taxi of RM150 to take us around.. but mostly we went to temples.. -.- dad was so excited in the temples sia~~ LOL.. hmm, went to the sleeping Buddha and blahh~ i dont know the name of the places... ooh, took an elevator that took as to the top of a hill, temple again.. -.- then went to this shop that sold their local products, mum bought two huge bags, hehe... went back to the ship at 5plus... :)

erm... i think we had dinner at bella vista was well..arcade again b4 watching a show that was being put up by the ship crew.. it was very funny~~~LOL.. there's this Michael Jackson dance, very pro... and 3 guys that dressed up like women and at the end pulled off each other wigs.. quite disgusting but funny.. :) watched till 10.45 and slept, duper tired...

4jan, breakfast was very rush of buffet because we followed a tour to disembark for phuket, Thailand.. at 8.30am.. but reaching there was a little troublesome because the ship kind of stop quite a distance away from the shore and we had to take a smaller boat to reach the beach called patong beach? i think so... its quite beautiful, the scenery... then followed the tour guide, i think there's around 5tour grps goin different places.. ours was a shopping tour with around 30ppl... learnt some thai language,haha(: but realised its of no use becuz ppl their can mostly speak eng.. or maybe its the places we went to know eng.. hmm, went to this mall which sold a lot of souvenirs, brought keychains...

hmm, then went to temple again... -.- dad got happy again.. -.- a lot of dogs there leh, haha... then went to the ship that sold yea, their local products.. OOH, MUM GAVE THE CRACKERS THAT I TOLD HER TO BUY TO MY UNCLE!!! :( its really really nice lorhh~~ T.T zzz... haha(:

shopping centre after that, my cam ran out of batt though i charged it the day b4 the trip.. T.T yea, but it was very rush becuz the guide only gave us 1hour to shop.. :( no time to buy anything... and the things there aren't cheap.. yep, then went back to the ship again... haha~

oh oh! then it was the gala dinner!!! they said that it was formal but i didnt care much about it and turn out it was REALLY formal, like how it was for prom... and i wore jeans and tshirt... -.- felt so under dressed.. haha.. the foreigners were so well dressed.. oh, i officially dont like cocktail sessions, so awkward.. dinner was nice at the pavilion.. haha, tried guiling kao for the first time.. :P

err, after that, bro, mum and dad entered the casino again.. :( but they didn't take very long this time round... hehe, ARCADE!! but it got much more boring each time we went in, cause its either we've tried it or it dosn't look fun at all... hmm, saw some Singaporean teens like those who had completed their a and olevels... LOL..mum and dad went to watch the last show for our cruise without us.. :( and they said that it was the best show among the three available throughout the cruise.. :( haiz~~ regrets... slept(:

5jan, last day!!! :( last day thinking about whether we should have western or chinese, last day of have the privilege of just raising your hand and get what we want, last day of my bed being cleaned up magically after goin out of the cabin for the whole day... T.T

had breakfast with mum and dad again becuz as usual, bro could'nt wake up, then swimming with daddy!!! omg, been a super duper ultra long time since i swam... :) the feeling's great!!! but very cold.. T.T haha, then returned back to bathe before looking for bro at the basketball court.. went to photo gallery and bought the photos!! they took for us before entering the ship and while getting down the ship for penang and phuket with the mascots.. i love all of them, though it was kind of ex. but mum and dad didn't really mind.. :) heehee..

lunch and then walked the whole ship being the last time.. LOL.. went to arcade for the last time again b4 early dinner at 4.30pm.. i think we spent a total of 44dollars in the arcade through the four days, hehe.. and tada, left superstar virgo at 7pm and aunt came to barbourfront to take us back home.. :)

yupyup.. had sea sickness ystd, dont know why, maybe becuz i've got use to the moving of the ship for 5days and uncomfortable being back on land, but its better now.. :)

results coming out yea? super worried, but shall enjoy myself much till 9jan... and then carefully think about my future...

thats all folks!! annyeong~~ :)

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