I'm really disappointed to know how my primary school friends are now.. like how they are picking up bad habits and not knowing where they should go now due to their results.. looking at how despaired they are somehow makes me feel, i dont know, guilty?
keep having flashbacks about how we played crazily in the past, when i went to her house in P6 where the aim of doing project became pillow fighting, how we chatted happily in school, how they teased me with a guy, how flustered i was when she lied to me that he said he liked me, all those small little memories we made when we are so innocent and immature ran through my mind.. i guess at that time, i only cared about my results, worried that i could not get into bpghs... i should have spent sometime influencing her to study and work hard together.. probably that way she would not have turned like that now...
maybe she had forgotten about me, i was just a passer-by in her primary school life.. but she's not to me, she's a true friend, an awesome desk partner in mt during P5 and a duper good friend in the first half of P6..yet, we drifted away as years passed.. we did chat on msn in sec1, how she taught me to change my dp for the first time, we chatted really long, but that was really, really the last time i had contacted her..in fact, somehow i dont have the courage to approached her anymore...
all these had passed for so long, its time to let it go right? even if i see her someday, i wont know what to talk to her, although i really want to..its just some kind of mixed feelings, you know?
maybe she have found her real best friends within these four years, maybe even if she sees me, she wont recognised me anymore...
haha, time to let it go eh?
lol, sorry, being emotional again...
jc wont be easy to survive through, should put all these behind and start afresh.. :)
bb:)