Sunday, May 29, 2011 9:58 PM
It's been a really long time since I've updated yea? This long post is for those who care about me.. But I doubt there will be anyone... -.- I've deserted this for far too long... :(
Quite a lot of big things happened during the period of my absence.. Shall list them down one by one, look out guys! For the return of kheng yi, the long winded and grammatically bad girl! haha:)
1) SYF on 5May2011
Yea, we got gold!! :D Although we really wanted more of GWH, reality shot me at the last few practices.. It was the exact same case of how it like when I participated SYF in 2009.. Everyone was so tensed up.. Really.. I thought it was gone case after SYF, cause I did not perform up to my standard as well.. Getting gold was such a relief.. We managed to maintain the standard set up by previous batches... And it was the first and the last time being able to be present at the annoucement of results! The atmosphere was wowwwww... Hehe, thanks acco, for giving the chance to finish my last SYF well... :D
2) New found friends
These five months could not have pass so well without my beloved AC friends.. I definitely still love you guys that I had met in BP, and I really miss all you guys dearly, but life must still go on being in a total new environment.. I realised that it is only when I let go of my original personality to suit others that I can really make others happy, and make people like me.. People think that I am timid and I do not have a temper, but I do. Everyone has one, right? Its just that I choose not to show it even when I feel disturbed or irritated.. I leave all my anger until I get home.. A cool bath as well as the concern showered by mummy get rid of them... Haha, but its rare laa.. The people I've met and befriended with are really nice people, both in CO and in SB2.. And I'm really thankful of them.. For talking to me when I'm alone, for being there when I'm crying(yes, its you all 6 girls, from SB2), and relieving the awkwardness when a person I'm uncomfortable with is there.. I don't show how much I love you guys, I don't give hugs or kisses, but i hope my simple actions at times will make u feel that I care about you.Cheers! :)
3) Unlucky
I have met up with a really horrible incident. I have this crazy teacher who scolded me for FORTY FIVE MINUTES just because I WAS TRYING TO TELL HER I HAVE AN EXTRA ECONS LESSON LIKE WTS.Okay, the story goes like this, if you wanna know.. I have extra lessons every tues because of my bad olevel result of this subject, a C5, it was bearable, apart from her telling me repeatedly that I WILL FAIL MY GP every single time I see, AND ITS DEFINITELY NOT TWICE like what she told my mum.. So, I approached her personally and I started my line, 'Madam, my class have extra econs lesson tomorrow after school, so...' I DID NOT EVEN GET THE CHANCE TO FINISH MY SENTENCE and i stood there like a complete idiot, a completely defenceless little girl hearing her scolding me for FORTY FIVE MINS with that look of disgust on her face. AWESOME. You know, 45mins is REALLY BAD, and i was scolded for NOTHING. I bit my lips for so long in anger and cried cowardly, but it was so hard to control, for 45mins... Then my mum and sangu went to see her, because mum was disappointed with how much I cried when telling her what happended, and yea, she brainwashed them so well. She did not even dare to ans how long she scolded me when mum asked, she said she only said that I'll fail my exam twice like PLEASE, its more than TWENTY TIMES. And she said she scolded to other two. HAHA. Like when man. Okay, you scolded the guy, but for how long, 5mins? and you didn't even look at the girl cuz you say she LOOKS LIKE YOU.
But I guess I have to thank you for making me grow up, for letting me to understand the importance of rebelling. I will protect myself from now on, I will NOT show that weak side of mine again. I have changed, maybe not in front of my peers who believed in me, but I will show that side of me in front of you from now on. I will nor respect you as a teacher anymore, cuz you are totally not worth my respect, shooting me down as though I have no feelings. I don't care if you chanced upon this, I'm good enough not to mention your name, cause I admit to the fact that you are my teacher, sadly.
4) June holidays
Okay, on a brighter note, ITS THE HOLIDAYS. Today was wonderful, spent a great time with my family.. Its bro's birthday too! We had ice cream cake and pizza~~ And I really rested well for the whole day, not doing any academic stuffs.. Its as though going back to the time after olevels.. But all these have to end by today.. Gonna go back to complete all my hw, pw and project stuffs... :( But at least I have today to motivate me on. :D
5) KPOP
Haha! Its been a while yea? For me being crazy all over again with KPOP stuffs and KIM HYUN JOONG!! Hyun Joong oppa's comeback is on 8june on my birthday like woohoo!!! hahaha!! TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT!! Its been so longg~~ like 1 whole year after the end of 'Love ya' album promotion.. And the members of doubleS have all release their mini albums..First with Jung Min of 'Not alone', Hyung Jun of 'Girl' and Young Saeng of 'Let it go'.. I bet hyun joong's comeback will be a super big event in the Korean entertainment industry!! haha! Look out, hallyu stars!! :P Just joking!! :D In the meantime, I've start to like quite a lot of other korean groups like CN Blue, SNSD and Big Bang.. And I think i'm starting to like this comedian called Jaesuk!! He's like in all the shows I've watched- Running man, famly outing, Infinity challenge and I bet there's many more! hehe:D he's presence never fails to make to laugh so hard.. :D
Yup, that's quite all my disappearance in 1month.. Hope you guys have been living, eating and sleeping well!! Thanks for your concern if you have read this post till the end.. I'm really grateful to have you as my friend! Here's a kiss for you!
*MUACKS*
HEHE:p have a fruitful and enjoyable holiday! Rest well! Till we meet again! :D
Thursday, May 5, 2011 9:35 PM
5 more days to SYF.
Are we there yet? I doubt so. Silver is definitely possible, but gold seemed sooo far.. There's no one to blame, the standard is just there. Maybe because there are lots of inexperienced players, the standard of co is hard to raise... But they are really very good lerh, based on the fact that they've only came in touch with the instrument for like 4months..
I really hope for a gold, I'll pray hard everyday from now on for a gold. I don't know why everyone's still so relax at CO practices. Everyone disperse to all places during breaks. Shouldn't now be the time where everyone should get tense up and really practise like there's no tomorrow? I don't know.. Or maybe I'm overly worried.
I really want a gold, I've spent so much time, money and energy, I dont want a silver in return of what I have put into ACCO.
Haha, jiayou ACCO. We really need a lot of oil. I need a lot of oil too... TIAN ZANG~~ T.T
Let's work hard, its just 5days, all the fun should stop temporary, dont cha think so? :)
FIGHTING!
I MISS BRIAR. :(
Sunday, May 1, 2011 8:52 PM
Feel like blogging in the middle of working on my physics tutorial... :)
Really happy that I'm finally handing up the final PI, a sense of relief... But the worst is yet to be, had a horribly bad start where my awesome group leader pushed all the work to me, claiming that it's just a 'çopy and paste' job and that 'Because its my PI, so I know best'. Fantastic. I don't know how it will be like as the project proceeds, I may become the legendary 'sai kang' warrior. But for now, I'll continue to wear my happiness like a mask and SMILE.
I'm so doomed if any of them chanced upon this blog.
Haha, I'm just venting my frustration and stress laa~ :)
Tomorrow's a holiday-in-lieu of labour day, but I have CO prac, we are worst than labourers yea?
Alright, I'm a bit stress out I guess..
School has being going on fine i guess, I wanted to be a loud and noticeable person in JC, but i realised I'm not fit to be at all. Its hard. Really. I don't get comfortable with everyone so easily unlike some.. I find it really awkward hugging others, I treat unfamiliar people with respect until I get comfortable with them. I don't talk crap easily. Up to now, there's only about 5 in AC which I'm really at ease with, and they come from everywhere- OG, class and CO. That's why I do not have large group of clicks. I feel weird in clicks.
Or maybe, I'm the one who is weird.
Still trying to get my footing onto d'AC land.
I wonder how hard I'll cry when my CO seniors leave in less than 2months time, LOL.. But I'm really relying too much on them...The only motivation of turning up for countless practices are because of them. They had treated me so well, I don't want to to disappoint them. Or maybe I'm the only one who thinks this way, maybe they'll treat everyone the same.
Haha.. Talking crap and being emo again...
Have fun guys! I know you guys have been living well, at least better than me.
I love to motivate others, because I know that a few words of care and concern can really brighten up their day, when they feel that no one cares for them, at least I'll pop out from somewhere to tell them, I'm here. But who is there to motivate me?
Bye:)