Tuesday, January 24, 2012 6:08 PM
My Chinese new year ended!! :D It was well, a pretty peaceful and successful one!! :D
On 20Jan, school's Chinese new year celebrations! But we call it AC celebrations, no idea why.. But, there was still lessons like wth, but cause I'm performing for CO, I had blue slip to leave early! :D That feeling's awesome~~ To be able to leave in the middle of the lesson, hahaha! :P Performance was quite successful barh, I had lesser stage fright now and saw my chem and econs teacher smiling at me on stage,haha:) Played Kpop medley and 贺新年！Heard that the feedback for both songs were rather good and I was so relieved after the perf ended because all the hard work for the past two weeks and the scoldings paid off! :D
And then there was Luo Hei ahhh~~ So funnnnnn~~ :D Then went out with waiteng, chai luan, zhi hao, xuankai and keith~ :) It was so funny seeing how xuankai made keith blushed like crazy, teasing him about his past crush, haha! Wanted to go scape's arcade and when we reached there, it was closed.. T.T then went to douby gaut? or was it outram park, can't rmb... T.T The arcade there's not bad also laa~~ Reached home at 9plus, haha! :)
21 Jan, Watched two episodes of running man in the morning! That was like the best sat I ever had since nov? Cause Saturdays are ALWAYS ruin by co practices.. :( laughed soooo much... :) Finished tuition hw in the afternoon, yea, i Know I'm crazy, and then the 1st reunion dinner at grandma's house... Had reunion dinner early cause one of my uncles was going overseas on the next day, so sad... haha... Kinda boring laa, stoned quite a lot there... But went to shop at west coast plaza with mum so not that bad! :)
22 Jan, woke up later than usual and spent quite some time surfing the net in the morning, haha! Then Bro came back in the afternoon... from camp.. Did some school homework while walking up and down the living room to catch a bit of tv before going out for another round of reunion dinner again! My cousin whose of the same age as my bro has huge muscles! haha, he trained too much liao laa, looked kinda scary... Sold my fun o rama coupons to my aunts but felt kinda bad cause I feel as though I'm cheating their money, hehe:)
23Jan, the first day of Lunar new year! :D Wore my pretty new BRIGHT RED dress with a black jacket, no photos though, too bad, HAHA, I think you wont wanna see it as well laa... :) Went to st Joesph church with family and the hall after renovation was sooo nice, and quite hi tech as well! With tv screens to show the readings without the need for us to fumble through the books to find out where they are, haha:) I like~~ :) Then, went to my mum's family for lunch!Buffet! Haha, it was so fun gambling with my relatives, especially my youngest uncle! :) I won 6dollars okayy!! :) With my great acting skills! :) Poker face:) Then, went to my dad's family side for dinner! had steamboat! But not really nice.. :( Reached home at 9pm plus, shagged but satisfied! :)
24Jan, which is today! Today's kinda the best day I had for the entire chinese new year celebration! :D Went to JP with dad, mum and bro for lunch and movieeeee~~ :) The Chicken Prosperity Burger is DAEBAK!!! :D And the curly fries are awesomeee~~ :DD Felt super duper satisfied! Then we watched The Viral Factor starring jay chou and Nicholas Tse! A very very good show with lots of gunshots and touching moments... Felt quite irritated when someone laughed when jay chou's dad in the movie died... haha... A good show, very action packed, and when you kind of let your guard down at some touching scenes, sudden gunshots will appear and the action starts all over again! :P Do watch it you are free! :) And the show is quite suited to be broad casted in Singapore as well, multilingual to the max, haha! :)
And mummy bought two slices of chocolate cake from Awfully Chocolate! Super nice! :D But its super ex, as well... haha!
Went home at 5plus! Yep, so its the end of my Chinese New Year! :D
Have a great dragon year my friends! :D
Sunday, January 15, 2012 9:26 AM
Pretty amused by Amos Yee's book review video... haha:) Just happened to know about this little boy from Jack neo's new film... Love how the way he describes the book and makes me wanna read it as well! :D
First week of school had been crazy, was soooo busy, for the wrong things... Reached home at 7.30pm to 8pm for the first 3days of school due to co.. And got maligned for the mistakes I freaking didn't make at all during open house.. :(
But I'm realllllyyy happy that my form and gp teacher changed!!! hahahaha:) The new teacher looks really nice and the way she teaches is super interactive that didn't fall asleep at all for the 100mins gp lesson! happy happy! :) But she looks way too much like mdm francis so shall keep a safe distance from her... I'm quite motivated to do well for gp now! :)
And I guess I'm really sick of co now... Ystd explained the reason why I did not bother to send those emails to encourage bpco juniors to come to acco.. Its so freaking stressful in acco, because of the sco instructors whose expectations are so high you can't help but feel pressurised to do well..your grades will suffer damn badly... Like how I was for me last year.. dont come acco, like really, everyone will just you the good stuffs of acco, but conveniently leaves out the hardship in it.. The standard in bpco is so different from acco, dont destroy your two years jc life just like that.. I've suffered, and I dont want anymore of my juniors to suffer as well..
However, I will still remain in it, because of the wonderful pals as well as the commitment...
I feel like I'm ranting to myself, no one bothers to visit anymore right? haha.. CNY's coming = hongbaos = MONEYYYYYY!!! :DDD I'm so poor now... T.T
Jiayou! :)
Sunday, January 8, 2012 5:50 PM
Dad got really happy when he knows how to write chinese characters in his phone, and he got angry when I said, 'Oh, good lor..' THEN WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY?! Jump in joy and hug you and scream, 'OMG, DAD YOU DID IT! WOWWWW!!! ' -.-
Tmr's release of Olevel results, one year had passed... Haha, kinda nostalgic... :)Read through my posts on 10jan2011 and how I made my choice to enter ac is kinda funny... haha:) But that was really the best day of my life, even with that ugly C5 english...
Now, I'm worried for my co juniors.. lol, although we aren't really close yet, and they have already DSA into AC so they only need 20 to get in AC officially, but, yea, still feel abit worried.. haha.. :)
And wth, school's starting tmr... that means waking up at 5.30am every single day.. T.T And I woke up at 9am today, how in the world I'm I suppose to crawl out of bed tmr?! Stresssss~~ :P
However, I'm looking forward to many many things as well! like the changing of GP and/or form teacher!!! fingers crossed! :)
My parents' making a big fuss about my sec1 cousin getting the merit award.. -.-
All the best for the new school term! Impt year ahead! As all adults say.. :P
Wednesday, January 4, 2012 6:49 PM
I dont know if it is a bad omen to post an emotional post at the start of the new year, but I think I'll burst if I dont voice it out, and I can't tell mum either, she'll be like, "想这样多做什么？！ 去读书啦！“ so yea..
I know I shouldn't think so much into it, like being in co for 5years, I should have gotten used to criticisms and let them go. If you are having this thought of, "CO again?!" then, dont bother to read the rest.
But just today, really, everything, every bad perf, every bad note I played, every criticisim I got, every scolding I recieved just sink nicely into my brain. And being a SL, i've gotten more. SO much more. And it sucks, really. I know all of these shit stuffs I get are to improve myself, but its hard not feel upset by them, especially a very experienced and good player treats it as a joke and laugh at you. I can endure and forget about everything if its just once, or twice. But every single practice is really too much, no matter how close or how unaffected I show. And as a joke? I know my mistakes and bad habits are really bad, but is 'disgusting'the right word to discribe them? I have tried my really best to kick the habit off when playing, but shouldnt you give me just a bit of respect that a human should recieve?
Maybe I'm just not suited to be in CO. I really wanted to just learn more in ACCO, and enjoy the best and friendliest atmosphere I can every find in ACJC, but maybe I'm too big headed of my ability. And I was too thick-skinned for my own good.
After today, I have made a firm decision never to join a CO ever again, I dont wanna be a burden to any excellent chinese orchestra.
But, I will do my best, and help ACCO tanbo in any way I can until after enCOre.
And thank you, Shen lao shi, for encouraging me today, seeing my discouraged face, that tanbo have improved.
And I dont hate you, i'm not even angry with you, I'm angry with how think skinned I am and how useless I have proved myself to be the SL of ACCO tanbo. Thank you for all that you have done to help me improve.
I will continue to put on a bubbly cheerful front and enjoy ACCO in every way I can for the coming 6months, but yea, I wont forget this feeling I have, this suckish feeling I have today.
I really love ACCO, alot, I'm just very upset with myself.